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I know I am not alone on this by any means. Doesn't mean it's any less frustrating.
I have always been self conscious on my weight. I'm actually not terribly over weight. I'm 30 yo female 5'6 and on average weigh about 170lbs. I could stand to lose about 30 or so lbs. This is my problem. My self worth. My husband says he loves how I look and thinks I'm very beautiful. But when I look in the mirror especially with no clothes on I cant look for very long. I've got a belly that jiggles, live handles, and cellulite on my thighs and butt. Ive always been slightly chubby growing up and the heaviest I've ever been was in high school. I think i peaked about 185lbs (I found my old ID when I was 17yo OMG...) Of course the kids in school would make fun of me. The boys would talk about all the girls and how pretty they were but would exclude me (even though I did not care for them I did feel very unattractive because I felt their viewpoint was unbiased and everyone else (like my mom) was biased). I would try and go on a diet. I just LOVE food so much. Food addiction is a very hard addiction to break because unlike alcohol, gambling, or drugs, you NEED food. You cant simply cut it out and hope to break the habit. It will always be there taunting you saying 'arnt I delicious? Come on, one more bite, it wont hurt'. I need to get over myself. Either get real kick myself in the butt and start eating right or just be happy with who I am. I want so desperately to lose weight but maybe I really dont because I dont act like it. I'll eat right for a while and do a great job. Last time I lost 12lbs. I was almost half way there then I fell off the weightloss ban wagon. We are trying to save money to buy a house so going to the gym is really not an option. Sorry for the long story. Any advice or any stories that might kick me into gear would be nice.
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