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Hi guys, I’m a female (19) and I’ve gained 20 pounds from 165 to 185 within the past two months. With fall courses and some mood funk, I’ve managed to gain three pants sizes and I feel terribly sick. And maybe it’s not all about my weight gain; I’m trying to love my body whether I am more robust or leaner, but I am making myself feel sick and I think my eating habits are making myself feel more moody.
I am a sugar addict.
While maybe addict is an intense word, I’ve come to this confession after writing down everything I’ve eaten this week and categorizing it. When I get stressed or feel bad I turn to Dr. Pepper. When I want to go out with friends and family I indulge in chocolate— because I’m enjoying myself right? In my past I’ve had an eating disorder, but I think now I view food too closely linked with enjoyment and I’m scared about counting my calories because I fear I’ll abuse it and shame myself. I feel like I also shame myself for eating so much sugar, like I am doing in this post, but how do I not shame myself and maintain a healthier body. I’ve grown up in a family where at around 9 the fun thing we’d all do together was go to the sev and come home and gorge in front of the tv. But I’m in charge of my future now.
I’m embarrassed. I feel like I’ve lost all of my progress from two years of work and I feel like I’m just self harming by over eating. I’ve noticed that every day I eat on average 2,350 calories extra in sugar. October was a month candy and I’m finding it hard to get myself back on track. Once I have one item, such as a 12 ounce Dr. pepper, I’ll cave and tell myself that because I did that I can have 4 more. And on top of that I’ll have dessert. And some days I’ll decide to be healthy and then my boyfriend will decide to surprise me with unhealthy food because he knows I love it.
Do you have any tips to help my sweet tooth? Tips for changing the culture of food to healthier food?Any positive affirmations or recipes? What helped/ or is helping you guys?
I’d love to hear your guys’ advice.
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