I simultaneously want to lose weight and not lose weight at the same time and I feel like if I ever actually said this to someone they'd tell me I'm crazy.

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I'm 5'5" and approximately 260lbs. I've wanted to lose weight for both physical and mental health reasons for a long time and have gone back and forth with dieting and exercising for short periods of time for the last couple of years.

More recently my husband and I have gone back and forth about having kids, I've always wanted to be a mom and have kids, he has never really shown interest in having kids or being a dad. We've talked about how I want to lose weight so that if/when I do get pregnant I won't be as high of a risk pregnancy if I were to get pregnant now. We talked about if I lost at least 40lbs then we could start trying. I will catch myself thinking now about how I don't want to lose weight because I'm scared of giving birth and I don't want to have a kid just because I lost weight.

I also will find myself having thoughts about how if I lose weight I'll have to buy more clothes and how much money that will cost, along with worry about if I lost weight if I'd have a lot of loose skin. I feel like they all seem like stupid reasons to not lose weight, but I find myself using them as excuses as to why I don't go work out or try to eat healthier.

Has anyone else ever experienced this? I feel like I'm alone in this struggle because who would not want to lose weight if it would overall be better for them?

tl;dr I'm overweight and make excuses to stay overweight for no reason.

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