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I stepped on the scale for the first time in two months only to see that those numbers jumped up again another 10 lbs. I have been avoiding seeing the scale for such a long time that I couldn't do it anymore. Nothing fits, I broke my jacket because I am so big.... I honestly feel disgusting. How can I raise two kids and show them this disgraceful health I have?
I have 50 lbs to lose to just be comfortable... but all i do is compare my past self to my current self and just think how far I've fallen.....
What made me step on the scale was I had Thanksgiving with a long time family friend and she has always been big and I just see how miserable she always has been, now she has cancer. It was a shock... I know it's because if her unhealthy lifestyle, diet and smoking.
I dont want that. I dont want to go through chemo or have my kids suffer that I cant play with them in the spring when it comes. I just want to mentally, physically, and emotionally comfortable.
Is that too much time ask???? 50 lbs is such a huge number and I just feel like I'm going to fail for the billionth time.
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