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Fortunately, I still have all my 36s and 38s from YEARS ago. I am glad I saved them, because it has saved me a TON of money as I have dropped sizes - I don't have to buy all new clothes.
But my point is this -- What I used to do, when I was yo-yo-ing (290, then 250, then 275, then 260, then 280, then 245, then 260, then 280...) was keep my "fat clothes" (ok, at my height, they were ALL fat clothes, but work with me here...) for ":just in case." Really, what I was doing was tacitly acknowledging something I believed was inevitable - the relapse.
And the relapse always happened - self-fulfilling prophecy.
But now, I have gotten rid of (donated, garage-sold...) all of my XXXL shirts and many of my XXLs (some of them are "slim-cut" XXL, whatever the hell that means, and still fit me ok). My 44-waist pants, 42s, 40s, and many of my 38s (some of the 38's are a bit snug and unforgiving, and still fit me, even as most of my pants are 36s now) are also all gone.
I've even lost a shoe size, apparently.
Will I relapse? Maybe. I mean, old habits die hard, and I love LOVE LOVE to eat. More than most things even. Perhaps more than all things, I don't know. But so far I have survived hell month #1 (3 family birthdays including my own, plus Halloween). Next month is Thanksgiving. December is Hanukkah, Christmas, and 4 family birthdays, including my son and wife.
Am I planning, or even expecting to relapse? No. But I'm not stupid. I know the risks. So far so good, I made it thorough October down about 3 pounds. I think I'll be okay maintaining through the New Year, I'll consider that a victory, but I'd still like to try to sustain a steady .5 pound per week loss.
BUT... if I do gain, if I do find that I need to go back to the store to get a pair of 38s, or an XXL Polo, or something, I want to be able to FEEL IT IN MY WALLET. I want to have to go through the conscious, physical process of having to go to a store, try shit on, pull out my wallet, produce some form of payment, and then walk out looking at the receipt.
Back in the day, when I would relapse, I would just pull the box out of my closet that said "240-260 lbs. clothes." It was too easy, there was no impact. But by getting rid of those too-big clothes, now I can't do that anymore. I have to inconvenience myself. It makes the reality of what I would be doing more "present," more onerous, more in-my-face.
I also have to say it feels kind of good to feel like I can get rid of those clothes, that I don't have to carry around the extra weight of the secret shame of knowing that my efforts will invariable, eventually fail, because this time I really believe that they will not.
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