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I'm 25, 171cms, and have been struggling on and off with eating disorders for over 10 years now. I tend to fall into obsessive behaviour - mostly excessive exercise to the point of injury and portion restriction. In the last few years I have gone from 63kgs to 80kgs. I went from eating 1 massive pub meal and occasional small meals and snacks a day, being on my feet 10 hours a day for work, and living the unhealthy relationship life, to 3 sizeable meals plus snacks a day, a full time sit down office job with 2 hours of commute time a day, and a happy healthy relationship.
I had a go of calorie counting a few months ago, with good results - I managed to lose 4 kilos over 4 months. Unfortunately I recognised that I was falling back into obsessive behaviour, and had to stop. I've put all the weight that I lost back on, plus a little more.
I'm feeling at a loss. I am in the process of finding a psychologist who specialises in eating disorders, but I'm getting to the point where I can't do nothing anymore. I don't fit in to most of my clothes, I am barely comfortable being naked around my partner. I keep seeing photos of myself from when I was 10, 20, even 30 kilos lighter and desperately wish I was back at that weight - I just don't know how to get there without hurting myself. I know this is probably above Reddits' paygrade, but I imagine someone on here must have some (hopefully kind) advice.
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