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Female 27 5’5” Sw:250 lw:227 gw:150 cw249
I busted my ass for about six weeks and lost about 20 lb, down from 250 to 227. I couldn’t see any difference and didn’t feel any different but the number on the scale was going down.
I was eating 1200 calories. Working out at least 30 min a day. Not every day was perfect but I felt in control even when I did eat unhealthy things or more than my allotted calories.
I knew thanksgiving would be hard. Not because of the food. I don’t like turkey, lumpy potatoes, or pie so not a lot of temptation there. My parents are newly divorced, the first holiday as such. Home is always stressful and less then twelve hours there before I gave up everything I figured out over the last month and binged like crazy on all the junk food in the cupboards. Stress city.
Two days later, today, I jumped on the scale as had become my morning routine. I’ve gained it all back. The scale this morning says 249. How is this even possible, and what is the fucking point of all of this if two days of eating the way I used to erases all of my hard work??? Why bother trying for the next four weeks when I’ll just be back at my moms again for Christmas and gain it back again. I tried so hard and have been miserable for the past month plus all for naught. I’m in therapy trying to figure stuff out but clearly I can’t handle anything still. I thought this was something I could control but I still just can’t do anything.
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